today..

February 7th, 2009 by pei-shya

2200 hr venue : cousin’s house

 

It’s like an era i never log in to my friendster, msn, email and etc. I just finished my 2 weeks IMH attachment yesterday. So, i need to concentrate on my up coming exam. Obviously i got no mood to study now. 

im going to 23year old in May. wahaaaa~ time flies, what is my new year revolutions..?

i want to be happy always and im happy with what iam doing now.

i just read jie sin’s blog, hmm..i feeling bad, maybe. Am i the one who making things worse..? i have no idea. Does she angry becouse of me..? i dont want to guess n i dont like to guess people’s mind.

haa, i found myself became more patient in listening which is a very good thing for me. i was able to stay calm and talk nicely  when the person was angry with me. i think it’s because after i had joined in nursing course. im quite well controlled.heee..i am bad tempered, i can throwing temper whenever i wish to. i want that to be the past.

hmm..im tired in front of the screen. i think i’ll create a blog later.

iam meeting my dearest ah yet ge ge soon. i am right here waiting for you forever and ever.

changes..

November 22nd, 2008 by pei-shya

He had changed. He said he need privacy. He started to ignore my message,my call.

i asked u to fuck off and i’ll give u the freedom.Dont be regret for what u’ve done! u really pissed me off, F

im stubborn, i dont want to change myself in order to adpat ur steps. Just go ahead, i dont need u to survive.

we are limit regulator~

October 20th, 2007 by pei-shya

To:

A friend i’m caring much..

i really dont want you to be leaving…

1)you’re my homouros  sense stimulator,i cant smile happily without you around

2)you’re my learning partner,i’ve learned alot from you

3)you’re the person who make me understand what is called sincerely n mutual trust in friendship..i started to believe that..it’s existing among us..you,mei yin.fiona,hai yen..

4)i do like you be my trusted friend,can you please prolong the period…?

5) you must overcome it..i know you can do it!!

6) dont give up easily!!we always be there for you!!support you always!!

6)you do enjoy in the course,didnt you..??

7)thinking wisely before any decision,without any regreting…

8) no one is prefect..!!

9)if u dont mind ,i can be your partner !!i will keep it confidentially!!so,no worry,the things settle!

10)haha…you’re the selected candidate to be a clown in the gang to entertain us,so..we all need you,see how important are you!!your  every single laughters brighten up our day!!

In a conclusion,there’re no excuses to leave~~

10 out of 100 listed reason supporting my conclusion..so..why still hesitating??

come on~~1… 2… 3… go Go GO ya!!

爱 情 没 TAKE 2~~

September 21st, 2007 by pei-shya
常听人說,在愛情的世界里,沒有所謂的對與錯……兩個人能在一起,就是緣分;若不幸分手了,便是無緣。現在的年輕人談戀愛講究感覺。對他們而言,感覺是愛上一個人的主因,沒有感覺的愛情枯燥無味,所以不如日分手,這樣就不會浪費彼此找尋真愛的 时 间了。不過,如果把愛情懸掛于真愛以及感覺之間,還真讓人摸不出他們有什麼關聯呢!
無論是感覺或愛情,在無情的時間見證之下,都會有所變更。難道所謂的真愛是永遠不變的愛嗎?對一個人的感覺可以永遠保鮮嗎?當感覺一旦變淡,是不是連愛情都沒有了?而經得起考驗的愛就是真愛嗎?怎麼才算經得起考驗呢?不受誘惑、沒有第三者介入的就是經得起考驗的愛情嗎?如果甲和乙條件相同,不過因為跟甲在一起久,沒感情了,反而跟乙在一起就充滿新鮮感,是否可以因為這樣而棄舊換新呢?

很多人分手了都會說是因為性格不合、沒有感覺或其他理由。有時,听起來很明顯的只是借口,明明是因為移情別戀了──在分手後,雙方就迅速地找到了新的另一半。難道分手後就不可以再開始另一段新戀情嗎?可以,不過讓人覺得納悶的是,如果是因為性格不合或沒有感覺而分手,那為何早不分,

晚不分,偏偏等到第三者出現了,就分手?當然,如果要解釋,他們的答案可以寫好幾本書。合久必分?真的是這樣嗎?沒有人可以給予正確的答案,有些人即使結婚了還是可以離婚,並且再婚的。難道婚姻真的是愛情的墳墓?是因為結婚後有束縛,不能享受棄舊換新戀情的緣故嗎?

生命沒有take 2,所以大家都盡量小心翼翼地選擇自己想要的生活。因為一旦作了抉擇,就無法再回頭了……因為我們並沒有那麼幸運,遇到可以讓我們重來的天使。那愛情呢?如果愛情也沒有take 2,那大家是否會小心而且更認真地看待愛情呢?隨時代的變遷,談戀愛的年齡已經越來越年輕化,甚至連小學生也開始談戀愛了,在心智以及各方面都尚未成熟、獨立的情況下,分手的幾率當然異常的高。

為什麼會這樣?

因為愛情總是可以重來,如果對第一段感情不滿意,隨時可以結束,然後展開新的一段戀情。只要生命還沒結束,愛情就隨時可以更新。然而,若愛情沒有take 2,一個人一生只能愛一個人,可能就不會有人因感覺變淡而分手了,更不會有第三者的出現。而且也沒有人敢冒冒然地愛,不會有人為了嘗試愛情而愛,更不會有人荒謬到為了吸取更多的愛情經驗而愛。考慮清清楚楚了才愛,愛了就要全心付出,絕不回頭……這樣的想法會不會只是一種夢想?這種願望是不是很難達成?

也許在取笑之餘,大家是否能嘗試想一想,若愛情變得像生命一樣可貴,那這願望是不是就能達成了?
雖然在現實世界裡,愛情隨時可以重來,然而真實的狀況是,愛情就像是一張白紙,以往的愛情記錄只要寫下了就怎麼刪也刪不掉,或許自己可以假裝忘記,但卻不可能忘記自己以及對方在愛情記錄中留下的回憶。有誰願意把傷痛的回憶留給自己的愛人呢

無可否認,對一個人感覺的確會隨時間而慢慢消逝,可是感情卻會慢慢被培養起來。之後,兩個人在一起並不只是一種習慣,而是因為感情建立了,彼此再也離不開對方了。雖說這樣的感情多數平淡如水,但細水長流卻綿綿不絕呀!當然,這種感覺,只有用心去愛的人才可以了解與體會了

4 mOrE dAYs to go~~

September 10th, 2007 by pei-shya

my attachment is coming to the last week finally…

erm…so far..quite enjoyable in the 1st posting..

i felt so happy when the patients getting well each of the day and going to discharge from the ward..i gained great sastifaction from the smiling of the patients..

erm…sponsorship …i need u..come on..

i felt sorry to my brother lo..let’s a heavy burden for him..

………..

it’s a silent night…with my loneliness…

can u feel me…

lonesome after left home…

September 2nd, 2007 by pei-shya

i felt lonely after left home…

sister and me rushed to the bust station   to catch the bus at 12.30pm today.last month was the last time i went back.between that period,i busy over my exam..

"ba!!ma!!"..i shouted happily when i just step in the door..ba replied me with a toothless grin at his upper part..

hehe…it’s so comfortable being at home..without my hesitate i faster rushed into my room n took my nice "smell" blanket.haha..

yaya..mama permed the aunty style curly hair,i saw more wrinkles at her concern of eyes…

ha..short is hereditary from mother in my family ,anyway,i like my height,it’s doesn’t matter if people mock at my "length".kakaka…

"ar..ba..open ur mouth..yo~drop ur tooth again.."this was the common conversation with my father.i think it’s the time for him to put    dentures.haha~~(><)

i miss so much home cook food~~i miss everthing here..

im a sentimental girl,i easily cry..easily fall in love..easily being touched..but i hardly show my true feeling to others…i always have an opposite behavioral toward the people around me..so..sometime i feel very tired..i hardly trust people…

ha.hardly find happy story in my blog..i dont think i’m good in writting happy and comedy story..

for my friends,im a bubbly,happy-go-luckly gal…

"behind my smile…there are sorrows..  "

" behind my laughter…there are tears…"

loniness occupied in one of the corner in my deep heart everywhere  and everytime..

lonely can helps me to survive…

gud nite …i have to work tmr…..i need  put more effort towards my target…

na NA~~jia yOu.

day 5 (><)CCC~

August 31st, 2007 by pei-shya

ERM…tired sia..

today the ward quite bz..conclusion is i’m very tired now..as a result ,i need to rest now…

so happy,im going back tmr to see my mama & bapa..miss ya…

gud nite..everyone…

my fourth day cc(><)-~~

August 30th, 2007 by pei-shya

i’m on afternoon shift ,from 1pm to 9pm…

yaya~~4 patient had discharged from the ward.that’s great!!the immobility uncle who i mentioned in the previous blog was sent back to the nursing home as well.

erm..well…afternoon shift not so buzy like morning shift.we were slacking most of the time.haha…so,instead of that,i went to take case notes files n take down some important imformation,the patient’s diagnosis,nursing care plan…try to make myself more familiar with the document n the chart.

it’s was a good news that nothing happend in the afternoon..

dinner time caming…..we helped to served the diet accordingly .

we got a very cute patient in our ward,her name is cherry.haha…is ah ma also.she was uncomfortable with the machine covered on her leg(actually i dont knw what is the machine and its function,kk,i’ll clarify from  my staff nurse).she tried to pull it out n started threwing tentrum to her maid.she refused to take her dinner.when i attended to her,she grin happily.she think that im the one who can take out the leceh thing.haha…after trying my hard to comfort her for several time,she likes a child started  lying down quietly…erm…they sometimes will behave like a child.so must be patience with them.

madam quek never passed urine at all of the whole afternoon.she was on diaper.so the staff nurse used bladder scan to check amount of urine in the bladder,there were 300 ml urine found in the bladder.as  a result,the nurse insert a temporary  tube to drain out the urine.wah,so amazing..~~the urine flowed out from the tube.!!then,they clean n changed clothes for her.ok…done!!

ah ma was more alert today,she opended her eyes n looked at u.even she was speechless,but i felt that she trying to ask us"what ur people doing ?y keep turning me.?"

after settled down,the senior started tube feeding for her.i observed the procedure and they let me hear the bowel sound(used sthetoscope to hear the sound at abdommen part.if got sushing sound that’s mean can feed her),but too bad,i cant hear it lo…

kakak said let me try tomorrow..kakaka…

erm…malay speaking pratice time..haha..i chit chat with a mak cik with bahasa melayu …she praised me fluent in spaeking malay.of course la…im Malaysian wat!!

yeah!!9pm redy!!going home!!

that’s all the story for today,i cant tell every detail definetely,but i feel happy when i really be a helper to the people who need the help.

ya,the kakak staff nurse said thank you to me when i ready to going home…"THANK YOU PEI SHYA"wah~~so sweet ler…hopefully i be a helping hand for the kakak lo…

yaya~~haha….all people had been cheated by my baby face.they never believe me when i told them i’m 20 currently,haha..it’s good that they think me as 18 years old girl…all the senior from ITE keep praising me  very cute n pretty..haha…they wanted to pinch my chubby face..

na NA~~muuacck~

never stray away from the sidewalk~~

August 29th, 2007 by pei-shya

just keep going on…..

u knw wat u want in ur mind..wat u need in ur heart…maybe u lost sometimes…but it’s doesnt matter..

u’re a sentimental gal in naturally,but ur superego helps u be a rational people…u try to do everything possible  from never stray away from the sidewalk..

so….just bear in mind…find out who u r..

haha…yet said u became slimer since exam period.so u must take gud care of urself…never sick for the following 3 weeks..after that u still need to find a part time job…so..must take gud care…

in ur mind..always worry about $$$ …wat can u do is find a sponsor as soon as possible…be part timer in vacation…

u always under pressure..iether fece it positively or negatively…pls stay calm n cool all the time..remember step by step..

u’re sick n tired sometime….

be strong n brave ~~~na NA

-the end-

my third day cc(><)-~~

August 29th, 2007 by pei-shya

       today was my third day of the attachment in CGH.i almost overslept,i qiuckly brushed up n rushed to the bus stand..even skip my morning bath.i took around1 hr journey to my destination.

   we did bathing for the patient in the early morning,i spoging again the ah ma.mdm quaek,ah ma is  speechless.she is skinny n a ulcer at her back due to long best rest,she cant feed herself and no ability of swallowing.she is on tube feeding.she is patient bed 12A n shoud be discharge for tmr.haha.i think nobody interested in knowing the patient detail.haha…i will  describe a patient per day in my blog..

breakfast hr coming…

a patient were transfered   to the ward after appendix sugery,she looked like very painful,of course she was in pain,as the surture site was her abdomen part.i assisted in transfering her to bed n participated in monitoring her vital signs.i learnt new things today.

i feed a immobility uncle ..i never see any family visit before.how can they left their parents in the hospital alone..this uncle is incontinence n have a long best rest.he cant get up by his own,so we need to feed him.ha.we also need becareful in every step we doing,every mistake may lead the patient to life threathening condition.after i check it out,the uncle is from nursing home.

today…i feel better than yesterday…if want be a knowledgeable nurse,so must always updated ourselves..do reading in home..never  shy to ask WHY why y…haha

i will make myself like the job i had choiced…

never regret in whatever i had done…

na NA ~~(><)